A Reality Check on My Streaming Journey

@everyone — a reality check on my streaming journey.

I sat down today and asked myself a simple question: why am I even doing this at this point?

So I started going through the deals, cashouts and affiliation I've given back — everything that has happened since I started streaming. And honestly, some of these numbers are crazy when you put everything together.

Let's start with the affiliation I've given back

• Razed: $65,022
• Yeet: $19,467
• Roobet: $28,676
• Stake: $21,252

That's $134,417 given back to players through affiliation alone. And that's not even the full story.

I started streaming RAW. My first few years didn't go well at all — literally streaming one day a week, gambling, and whenever I won, giving money away to viewers. Looking back, I was just being a complete idiot with money.

Then I got my first deal with Razed: $300 fills, no withdrawals, and if I remember correctly, $100 paid per week. All that money went back to players under my code.

After that came a MetaSpins deal that honestly made little sense. They offered me $10K despite the low affiliation rate. Someone cashed out $10K, gave $9K to stream, and Jumper and I took home $500 each. There was no affiliation on MetaSpins.

Since then I've gone from Razed to Roobet and back to Razed, always trying to find ways to make the players happy — because the community has always been my priority.

Now let's look at Stake, where I can finally see the numbers clearly

Month 1

• Cashout: $11,500
• Given back: $9,500
• Returned to players: 82.6%

Month 2

• Cashout: $14,700
• Given back: $10,600
• Returned to players: 72.1%

Current period

• Cashout so far: $9,300
• Already given back: $6,500
• Another $1,000 is still in the raffle.

That means we're already at 69.9%, or 80.6% when the raffle money is included.

Across these three periods, we've returned $27,600 out of $35,500 in cashouts, including the pending raffle. That's 77.7% of those cashouts going back to the community — and we're only coming into our first biweekly raffle.

What happens behind the scenes

I genuinely feel like some of you don't understand what happens behind the scenes, or how much of my own money and time goes into this.

I gamble off-stream as well. I'm a degen on stream and off stream. I'm not pretending otherwise. But here's what people don't see:

• Team and production costs: around $1,800/month
• X giveaways: $600/month
• Stream giveaways: $500/month
• My own withdrawal: $600/month

And that last number deserves some context. I spend an estimated 6 hours a day, 7 days a week, working on everything behind the scenes — that's around 182 hours a month. My $600 monthly withdrawal works out to approximately $3.30 an hour. And that's before you even start counting the hours I spend actually streaming.

So here's the moral of the story

Maybe I'm genuinely the dumbest affiliate in history.

The affiliation figures above alone add up to $134,417. Add the $35,500 in Stake cashouts I've listed, and we're talking about $169,917 in combined affiliation givebacks and cashouts across these figures — and that's without even pretending this is a complete financial overview of my entire streaming career.

Yeet alone saw me give back approximately 75% of the cashout figure I'm comparing it against, and that was one of the reasons things didn't work out with some casinos in the past.

What I actually want to know

Everyone talks about 10x monthlies, crazy bonuses and how much they give back. But what are the actual numbers? What happens behind the scenes? And what happens when the camera is off?

I want to see the transparency. Not the marketing, not the LARP stories, not just the biggest number someone can post to make themselves look good.

I'm not posting this to act like a saint. I've made mistakes, I've made bad decisions, and I've probably given away money I should have kept. But I want you guys to understand what we're trying to build here, and how much goes into keeping this community going.

TGZZ has always been about the players. And I'm going to keep showing you the numbers.

TGZZ OUT.